What My Knee is Teaching Me
Four Body Check-In
This is part of an ongoing series I’m calling The Four Body Check-In—a space to pause, listen, and reflect through the lens of the physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual body. I’ll share these when they feel alive and relevant, as a practice in presence, not performance.
🦵 Physical Body
The pain in my left knee remains. I fell on the outer left side (external impact), but the pain radiates from the inner left knee—an invitation into internal awareness.
✨ Spiritual Body
I am witnessing the release of an old identity. But the pain is rising from the part of me that overcompensated, that held everything up inside when the outside felt unstable.
🧠 Mental Body
I wrote an article about how, in the past, I projected my wants and needs onto others while ignoring my own voice. What I was really asking for was to be nurtured, to be held, to be loved. That article goes live tomorrow.
💓 Emotional Body
I’m releasing the need to pour into others while ignoring myself. I’m also releasing the blindness that kept me from seeing how often I’ve projected my internal longings outward.
The biggest light is shining on food—how I’ve offered it to others before offering it to myself. It mirrors how I once sought attention, not by giving it to myself, but by needing it from others.
Closing Reflection
We’re taught to give everything away—to care for others before ourselves.
And for so long, I did. I poured into work, school, pets, people… and left myself behind.
Eventually, I would get angry at the world. But really—I was just angry that I had abandoned myself again.
The longer I ignore myself, the more I pour outward.
Until I collapse.
Exhausted.
Overthinking.
Overwhelmed.
It’s the awareness that most of my conflict with others begins as an inner conflict with myself.
And now—I’m finally listening.
You are very aware of how your body is teaching you— I need to ask it more often to tell me what I need to know. Especially persistent pain in my back- I’ll let you know what I find out.